the glamour...or not
I have always wanted to be a mom. Honestly...always wanted to be a mom. I am pretty sure it started at birth. I always played with baby dolls and Barbies....maybe a little longer than I should have but I digress. My years babysitting, teaching little ones and nannying was meant to prepare me for my own kids. Of course the list of what I will do and I will NEVER do is a list too long to recite or even follow through with...Well in January my dream will finally come true. I will be the mom of a new bouncing baby something. Needless to say we are excited/nervous/overwhelmed. And I am coming to realization that I never really thought about the whole pregnancy part of having that bundle of non-sleeping joy! I guess I have naively thought I would love being pregnant from the moment of conception. I can't wait for the baby to get here. I am looking forward to the first time I feel the baby move...However all the other stuff, so far, not so crazy about it.
First I am aware that my first trimester has not been bad in comparison with what it could be like! I have yet to throw up (and hopefully won't!). I have an easy job where I can sit in front of a computer all day and work. However that doesn't excuse the fact the first trimester is no fun. Nausea is my mortal enemy. I don't even remember what it is like not be queasy. Pictures of food are disgusting especially after I have forced myself to eat something so I don't throw up. I want to go to bed at 8pm every night (I usually force myself to wait til 9:30! that is success right??!). I have exercised twice in 3 months because even walking up the steps gets me little out of breath! I am limited to only 4/5 dresses because none of my pants fit. Everything is uncomfortable and makes me feel just plain BLAH (yes, that is a state of being!) and......
ok you get it! I am not feeling the pregnancy glow or the glamour yet. But hopefully I am going to turn the page next week and be done with the no fun part...well until 8 months when apparently I never sleep and could possible pee on myself when I laugh. See more glamor or not...
posted by deanna @ 2:17 PM
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