Roaming Tennessee Girl

the glamour...or not

I have always wanted to be a mom.  Honestly...always wanted to be a mom.  I am pretty sure it started at birth.  I always played with baby dolls and Barbies....maybe a little longer than I should have but I digress.  My years babysitting, teaching little ones and nannying was meant to prepare me for my own kids.  Of course the list of what I will do and I will NEVER do is a list too long to recite or even follow through with...

Well in January my dream will finally come true.  I will be the mom of a new bouncing baby something.  Needless to say we are excited/nervous/overwhelmed.  And I am coming to realization that I never really thought about the whole pregnancy part of having that bundle of non-sleeping joy!  I guess I have naively thought I would love being pregnant from the moment of conception.  I can't wait for the baby to get here.  I am looking forward to the first time I feel the baby move...However all the other stuff, so far, not so crazy about it.

First I am aware that my first trimester has not been bad in comparison with what it could be like! I have yet to throw up (and hopefully won't!).  I have an easy job where I can sit in front of a computer all day and work.  However that doesn't excuse the fact the first trimester is no fun.  Nausea is my mortal enemy.   I don't even remember what it is like not be queasy.  Pictures of food are disgusting especially after I have forced myself to eat something so I don't throw up.  I want to go to bed at 8pm every night (I usually force myself to wait til 9:30! that is success right??!).  I have exercised twice in 3 months because even walking up the steps gets me little out of breath!  I am limited to only 4/5 dresses because none of my pants fit.  Everything is uncomfortable and makes me feel just plain BLAH (yes, that is a state of being!) and......

ok you get it! I am not feeling the pregnancy glow or the glamour yet.  But hopefully I am going to turn the page next week and be done with the no fun part...well until 8 months when apparently I never sleep and could possible pee on myself when I laugh.  See more glamor or not...

posted by deanna @ 2:17 PM