too much stopping
I do better with endless amounts of activities. And for the last 2 years that has been my life. I have been running non-stop all the time. Granted this lead to migraines and too much stress and an excessive amount of emotion much to my husband's dismay (yes I have one of those now:) but I like the going all the time. My man makes sure that I stop when he recognizes I am not stopping period. I love him for recognizing that I need a break.However since the wedding and the holidays are over, I have had too much time to sit around and ponder all elements of my life. Way too much time...time to freak myself, time to feel sorry for myself, and time to realize how little I have to do!! I am so used to at least one element of my life being a little crazy and little stressful. I am pretty sure I never had all things be calm...right now they are, and it is freaking me out and boring me to tears!
Married life is amazing. We enjoy each other and rarely argue...Yes I am aware it has only been a month, but still I think that is a good record. Living with a man hasn't been that much of a struggle other then the socks he leaves everywhere! How does one person have so many socks??!!! We both keep waiting for the 'awful' part we were warned about. We are expected to start hating each other because everyone told us the first year is the hardest. Yes I know maybe I am being naive...However we have settled into a normal or semi-normal routine.
Our apartment is as a set up as it will be until we decide to spend more money. All cabinets are crammed full of stuff we do and don't need!
Church is good. We have found a place to plant and a small group we like. I have adjusted from my "collegey" church to "high" church. It no longer seems strange to go to a Presbyterian church...once again normal...
My job is...BORING. Yeah there is no way around it. I spend 90% of my day with nothing to do at all and I am not exaggerating...not even a little bit! pretty sure anyone with 1/4 of a brain could easily complete all elements of my job. However I have a steady paycheck and great benefits...
So here lies the problem...zi am finding myself restless with so much stress free time on my hands. What should I be doing? Deep sigh maybe I should just enjoy the break God is giving me and rest in the calm...
posted by deanna @ 11:05 AM
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