Thursday, September 01, 2011

be quiet and know

I like noise. I am a noisy person. I am pretty sure I was never even a quiet child unless my nose was stuck in a book and I was avoiding chores:) The many baby pictures of me with a bright red face in mid scream reiterate this concept!

Well for 3 days we have had no power here in the nanny house/neighborhood due to Hurricane Irene. (I skipped day 1 by staying with a friend so my silence began about 8:30am Monday!) First let me state this was the easiest and probably best power outage. Gas stove top, Gas hot water heater and fall like weather made it crazy easy. Showers were perfect. Plenty of ways to make food and no air conditioning needed. The problem is the silence especially after work. No music, no TV and limited phone time had left me with about 4 hours of total quiet studying with a flashlight and candles. This can only be done for so long especially for a girl who is ALWAYS surrounded by noise! TV or music is on ALL the time for me. I find comfort in that noise. Nine times out of ten I am not even paying attention to it but I know it is there! The lack of noise has led to an over load of thinking...

The concept of "be still and know that I am Lord" has run through my mind nonstop today (Tuesday actually:) However I am beginning to think 'be quiet and know that I am Lord' may be more beneficial for me right now...

A certain area in my life is sort of drastically changing right now...I have found myself non stop talking, analyzing and verbalizing the change with friends, family and God-NONSTOP. In fact I am beginning to think I may be turning it into noise. I need to stop and let God...let God control it, guide it and plan it. Not me....so far His time has been pretty good. I need to be quiet and know that He is the Lord of my life. He will work it out if it suppose to be. In fact I want Him to work it out in His way. So far He is doing a wonderful job I just need to let Him continue that...