Roaming Tennessee Girl

On the Bed

I love my bed...It is a queen sized mattress with a 1 1/4 inch memory foam mattress topper. My sheets are at least a 400 thread count sateen. A down comforter covered in a chocolate brown sateen duvet cover lays over the sheets. I never have less than four pillows on it. When I am away from home I miss it, and it is the one thing I enjoy the most when I return home. Not only do I sleep there but it is also my quiet time safe haven. Since losing my job in April it has become the only place I want to be in the morning.

My morning routine...awake when the mood strikes, go downstairs, fix a cup of coffee and sometimes breakfast, go back up stairs with my breakfast, select at least 3 different bible study/books I want to read for the morning, sit crossed legged on the bed with the tv playing music in the background. For the next hour or sometimes two I have my 'Jesus time'. My bed is my Christian bubble.

While on my bed I am 100% focused on God and my relationship with Him. His word is alive; I sin less; I learn; I don't worry as much. However I don't get to stay in that bed. It is amazing how within ten minutes of getting off the bed to start my day my normal self rears its not so attractive head. Selfishness, worry, doubt and lack of self confidence tend to overwhelm me. Excuses pop into my head as to why I can't do something. My plans not God's tend to formulate. My explanations always seem to make more since than His...

I wish I could stay on my bed...it is safe. It is amazing. I feel spiritual growth. I am at peace. but I don't think that is God's plan...(to be continued)

posted by deanna @ 10:35 PM