Roaming Tennessee Girl

the bigger problem

I am not a patient person by nature. One of the hardest things for me to do is wait on anyone or anything...I am always early for a multitude of reasons, but the main one is so things will hurry up and start. I don't know why I think that will make it go faster. Christmas Eve I want to go to bed early so that Christmas gets here faster. When I buy a new CD, I unwrap it before I pull out of the parking lot. When I get a new book I can be caught trying to read it while sitting at a red light. I struggle to wait until I get home much to the dismay of the other drivers I am sure. I am impatient in the car, at the store, and with slow people of any kind. I always want a rapid fix. My foot issues are so frustrating because it seems to be a never ending problem (6 months feels like forever:)

One of the hardest things for me to wait on is Christ. In my mind He seems to take forever to do anything. I know He will do what is best for me, but why does it take so long? Sunday I ran across 5 or 6 scripture about waiting on the Lord. Waiting on Him will bring me rest, strength, and blessing. In my head I know this but why can't I live that way. And I think it is because I often feel ashamed to tell others about my life. I know that sounds awful, but it is true. People expect me to be married with kids and working at a job I love. I hate that dreaded "so what are you doing now?" question. I have none of those things and I hate explaining that to other people. Maybe I should wait on God....pride seems to be a bigger problem than my impatience. "O my God in You I trust. Don't let me be ashamed..." Ps. 25:2

posted by deanna @ 9:42 AM