a little off track
I have been here 4 months...part of me feels like i have been here forever and the other part feels like i have only just arrived. However this week i realized I have stepped into being a believer who isn't really talking to God because things are going so well.I was flat on my face, praying, studying and talking to God before I moved here. I was specific and intentional with all I was doing in my spiritual sphere. When I moved here everything feel into place like a perfect puzzle with all the pieces! and it happened immediately...
work-like it = check
Living with others not awkward = check
paying off debt = check
friends = check
christian community = check
Oh my gratitude and awe at all these answered prayers is great. I make sure that I thank God for all He has done and is doing. However that is turning into the only time I talk to him other than sunday.
why? I have always warned others about not doing this. do i feel there is no need? my list of excuses is long too tired, too busy, no accountability, not teaching right now, yada yada. However now that I am aware of this problem i have to get on track. I miss it. I miss God...
posted by deanna @ 3:57 PM
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sometimes, and this is true for me so only apply it if it fits, when i find myself not seeking him as hard after a season of really running after him, i realize that what i was really seeking before was an answer or a feeling or a comfort, basically something other than God. and when i got my answer i moved on. i didn't "need" him anymore. this is something he has really been showing me this past couple of years. i use him a lot and he wants me to be in a place where i want him and not just what he can do for me.
like i said, this may not fit for you but i thought i would pass it your way anyway....
Oh mentanna I have definately done that one before!! it may be this time around too...still praying about it. I really think I have just been so lazy and undisciplined. Things I have wanted for awhile seem to be happenening so I guess I feel I deserve a break. However that is not how a relationship is suppose to work...
I miss you! wish you were closer so we could have coffee and talk alot!
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