Roaming Tennessee Girl

heart's desire

Is it possible that my greatest desires are also the biggest hindrances in my relationship with Jesus Christ? Do I hold on to them so tightly that I won't let God have His way with them? Have I made them stipulations in our relationship? Since He hasn't done anything about them does my time with Him suffer because I don't like His timetable or understand what He is telling me? These are just a few of the questions floating around in my head over the last week. I find that I am treading water in everything I do. My life seems to be caught in a circle of going to work, gym and then home. I may spend a few hours a week hanging out with friends but carrying on the same conversations. I want to get out of the circle, but everything I want to do seems impossible. I think I now what I want more than anything in the world, but am I holding on to it to tightly. How do I let it go to prove that I trust God? What do I focus on if I let it go? How do I stop feeling overwhelmed and discouraged?

I don't mean for this to sound sad...am just thinking outloud.

posted by deanna @ 12:52 PM